The laughing, the bubbling
Dancing in your mind
Feeling a promising sunrise
Isn't far behind

The giggles begin to rise
A smile betrays
A sunnier rebirth
Of ensuing days

The skies may be gray
The air blasts cold
But inside it is bright
The colors are bold

Dance with the laughter
In your heart sing
Skip without rhythm
To happiness cling

You can feel it circling
Waiting to suck the air from your lungs
Inflicting pain and doubt

You feel the floor rocking
The whirling wind decending around you
What happened to the calm?





The enemy laughs at you
She waits to steal your happiness
Her heart is black

You close the door
Block it from entering your walls
It bangs from outside

It gathers strength
Comes whirling in new directions
Pounding, never gone

You refuse to move
There is no reason to retreat
You begin to laugh

It is so absurd
The hatred is without merit
She is so unhappy

The storm clouds glow
They turn from gray to emerald
You are not responsible

Her life is bad despite
You are not the one that brought her blackness
She throws it at your light

She tries to distinguish
Any light that you shine from within and without
She never will understand

The light will never leave
It has an unending source and supply
Her blackness will not matter

You find a peace to hold
She finds it too much and whirls about
There is no rest for her

As I sit and slowly breathe
Watching out the window
The gray sky doesn't depress
Today is not my foe

Feeling a calmness set in
Knowing today is good
No matter what is waiting
I'll deal with all I should

There is a strength that is renewing
In my mind I see the image
For years was left behind, waiting
Without it how'd I manage?

But as a caterpillar changes form
Today I begin to morph
The day will dawn and you will see
A stronger me step forth

No more bowing, no more crying
No more giving up to fear
I can forge ahead and if I have to
Move beyond what I have here

You hear the sadness when I speak
Nothing has ever felt the same
As long ago, before your betrayal
When I'd hear you speak my name

I've saved you from your darkened pit
Surrounded you with light
But to do that sucked my joy away
The balance isn't right

I've made a promise, took my vow
But what good is it all
Is this really all you want
Pretend there's not a wall?

You know I'll put on my best act
If you ask, then I'll deny
That I could be less than happy
And I would ever say good-bye

I've given in, I've given up
This is what it is
If being there to make you live
Is all the life there is

You pack your bags for an adventure
Everything is new and clean
You feel the excitement flow through you
The heightened senses of sight and sound

You step out into the unknown
With only a wonder of the of it
Only holding on to sideways thots
And a heart full of kindness and naivete

Others notice and smile your direction
They encircle you, accept who you are
This feels like a good place to dance
To share your happiness and sorrows

Then, the shadow starts to creep
Spreading darkness and muck
You think you are safe and out of sight
But it finds you and follows

It is unrelenting in its advance
It pulls you in and chews you up
You have tried so hard to stay out of its way
You've tried to shed some light

It is evil and twisted and hateful
You can't understand why you
You were just here, being yourself
No ill will, no hatred, no spells

But it holds out a monster and call it you
Thrashing your name and spewing acid
Some stop and listen and begin to believe
You make the mistake of fighting back

You knew it was fuel for the blackness
It feeds on anger and fear
You only helped it to grow
You only helped it to swallow you whole