I know you are there
I can hear you breathing
And I don't care
That you are seething

This is my life
And you can't destroy it
Insert the knife
And try to enjoy it

You may draw blood
But you won't slow me down
Sling your mud
In the flood I won't drown

See my smile?
This you can't erase
I hope you're riled
With this look on my face

There's too many spaces in between
And too much time elapses
Just when I think I've got a hold
The world around collapses

I scoop it up and stand in awe
Of how delicate it was
How could I not have realized
The damage neglect does?

I'll pick it up and mend the lines
You have to know I'm there
Send you messages from my mind
My heart tells you I care

There is so much that should be felt
And so much held inside
I am not sure what should be shared
And how much I should hide

It's not the same, it never is
The scenery changes so fast
Just when I feel settled in
My present becomes the past
Things I think are permanent
Are the ones that just don't last
Feels like trying to control
A ship with a broken mast
Through the swirling wind
Across a sea that is so vast
In desperation I look around
With the anchor in hand to cast
Then all is suddenly calm
The sunshine shoots like a blast
Lights upon something familiar
With a smile, I stare aghast

GRACE::

I'm on my knees
only memories
are left for me to hold

Don't know how
but I'll get by
Slowly pull myself together

There's no escape
So keep me safe
This feels so unreal

Nothing comes easily
Fill this empty space
Nothing is like it seems
Turn my grief to grace

I feel the cold
Loneliness unfold
Like from another world

Come what may
I won't fade away
But I know I might change

Nothing comes easily
Fill this empty space
Nothing is like it was
Turn my grief to grace

Nothing comes easily
Where do I begin?
Nothing can bring me peace
I've lost everything
I just want to feel your embrace

I love you..
I love you..
I love you.
I love you.
I love you...